You Need to Lose Weight... Nope! I Need to Buy Shoes!
- Tutu Mummy
- Apr 14, 2016
- 5 min read
I am not going to lie to you - I haven't been dieting. I was all geared up too "climb back on the wagon" and even published a blog post about it and then I did nothing. There isn't even a good excuse like the dog ate my homework, it is literally that life has taken over. I seem to have had a huge lack of time which means that I have been cooking what has been quickest and easiest. I have also recently suffered a shoulder injury which has put me into a bit of a doped out state thanks to the amazing pain killers I have been put on and is looking like it will take a few weeks to fix... BRILLIANT! Other than that, there really is no reason... I just seem to be distinctly lacking in enthusiasm and what I need is a giant kick up the bum and yesterday I got one from a surprising place.
I took my mum to the doctors this week and it was quite a serious appointment as a lump had been found and needed to be checked. On a side note before I continue, she got the all clear thank goodness and is absolutely fine.
Anyway, I took her to the doctors appointment and was there to hold her hand. She was lucky enough to be seeing one of the top consultants who was very businesslike and to the point and looked every bit the professional. She was pointing out to my mother, after finishing the examination that a healthy diet would help her with the pain and symptoms of a chronic illness she has and would generally make her feel better. Then, for some unknown reason, she turned to me and said "It would help you too.!" Now, I am not saying this is untrue, I do need to lose weight and I know that. However, what on earth possessed this woman to think it was okay to comment on my weight and my health situation when in all fairness I was not there to be her patient and should have technically been invisible? Why do slimmer people feel the need or feel they have the right to make comments like that? It really touched a nerve - she was speaking the truth but I am not sure she had any right at all to be saying to me what she said. It really hurt actually.
I know I need to do something about the way I look and I need to do it for me and NOT because anyone else thinks I should. However, in the last 18 months, I have given up smoking, had a baby, had major surgery, been made redundant, escaped a horrid relationship, lost a best friend of 14 years and only had 3 alcoholic drinks the entire time so I think I am doing quite well and please forgive me if I don't have everything sorted just yet. However, the point is I have started and I am trying and have already lost a stone... so BACK THE HELL OFF!
Forgive the rant... we'll move on! So, after feeling bad, I was trying to think of something materialistic (other than food says the fat girl) that cheers me up and makes me happy and that's when I remembered... shoes. I love shoes - high, medium, low, flat, wedge, sporty...it doesn't matter. I love shoes and have rather a few pairs of them. Granted, lately a lot of my shoes have been flat for two reasons a) I don't normally go anywhere that requires high/dressier shoes and b) have you tried carrying a baby around in stilettos?!?! That is asking for trouble... for now though I am quite content in my lovely pretty flats and will return to the realms of high/platforms at a later date.
This got me thinking though - why do I like shoes? I mean, I don't particularly like feet (nope no foot fetish here) and in fact seeing as I used to dance, personally I think I have quite ugly feet from the bashing they used to take so it isn't even like I want to show them off. So what is it... well, no matter how much weight I lose or gain, my shoes, my wonderful, faithful, shiny and sometimes sparkly shoes ALWAYS FIT!! It is so much nicer going shopping for shoes than it is for clothes. You don't have to reach for the back of the
rail to see if they have your size and praying that the big size will fit. You also then don't have to avoid making eye contact with the sales assistant when you pay for your clothes, knowing that they have just seen the size on every single item of clothing that they have just rung through the till and know your awful secret! Nope... shoes like all women - they don't discriminate! Shoes are my friend and I love them dearly. Of course being a single working mummy, I don't have time to buy the kind of shoes that dreams are made of, I have to make do with old faithfuls and the odd bargain on eBay. However, if I were able to choose any shoes my heart desired, what would they be I hear you ask....
My Wish List
Care Bear shoes by Iron Fist - because I mean who WOULDN'T want Care Bear shoes. These are just sooooooo cool!
Alice in Wonderland Shoes by Irregular Choice - I am a huuuugggeee Disney fan and also Irregular Choice are my ultimate indulgence at the moment. Love their store in Brighton!
Magical Marina Shoes - by Irregular Choice - yes I know I have already picked some shoes from them but a girl can want more can't she? I love the floral design in these... it matches my logo hint hint wink wink!
Rada Tilly Shoes by Irregular Choice - okay last one I promise but have you seen the sparkle? They are pink and glittery!!! It's like they are a part of my soul!!!! So purrrttyyy!
Manila Suede Block Heel by LK Bennett - I love a good black shoe and the heel on these is not only nice and big and therefore more stable but it's gold! These will make me feel like a growd up!
New Simple Patent Pump by Christian Louboutin - these are an ultimate fantasy. The signature red soles are to die for. My mum said if I ever got married she'd buy me a pair for the wedding... I am still waiting. Can I have them anyway please?? Ultimate power walk down the red carpet for the MADS awards?
So, I know this was not exactly my diet journey entry that you were expecting and whilst I was upset by the unexpected comments from that presumptuous doctor, it was a kind of verbal kick up the bum really wasn't it? So, I am back on it. I am pulling on my big girl shoes (big as in grown up in this case) and it's time I got back off my arse and once again start this bloody battle I am not doing too well in at the moment. For all those lovely shoes out there... I am coming to get you. For any lovely shoemakers out there.... I take a size 7 THANKS!
What is your dieting non-food pleasure?
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